journal entry from april 10, 2006

it's a monday like any other. the sky is a dusty shade of grey, which matches perfectly the colour of my mood. i am disappointed in the human race. i don't at the moment have the taste to tell the sordid tale, but simply the desire to state that i am not bouncing off the walls with excitement right now. once again, i am reminded not to put my faith in imperfect man who fails me, but into God will never leave nor forsake me. it's a bittersweet revelation, which in time, i know, will be shed of its tart flavour and again taste ripe, fresh, and delicious in my mouth. it is so true, that God is so gracious and so loving and so infintely good. the more acquainted i become with life's sting, the more i realize how he's the only thing worth putting any faith into at all. i am reminded of this verse in psalms, which has always brought me much comfort-

27:13-14, "I would have despaired unless i had believed that i would see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord; Be strong and let your heart take courage; yes, wait for the Lord."

this is all i can do. it is everything i have.