look at me go

could this be my third post in a week? wow, i'm so hardcore.

anyways, i was just reading something i wrote probably a month or so ago, more or less complaining, blaming my own cynicism on others (i think i quote fiona apple). so, i kind of want to retract that. even though it was quite a while ago that i said it all. allow me to explain...

i had a really refreshing conversation this morning. a friend of mine was telling me how she can't stand all these goons who walk around somber-faced, emo, and depressed, because of all of the punches life has thrown their way. yep. living in suburban abbotsford, drowning your sorrows in cds and machiatos definitely can be pretty traumatizing. it sucks when your parents don't understand you, when things aren't as perfect as you'd like them to appear, when you're bogged down by inner turmoil because life is just sooo hard. yep. i feel really sorry for those people.

well, this is getting a little off-topic. this isn't to be insensitive, but i'm saying this because i think we really need to be wary of the feeling-sorry-for-ourselves-because-life-is-so-hard syndrome. it is rampant. my friend, who i'll call sally, is a pretty awesome human being. she has endured her fair share of actual real life crap, and is maybe one of the happiest people i know. she was telling me, how yeah, things aren't perfect, there are things she needs to deal with all the time, and the past is largely still present. does this give her the right to whine about it? no, she said. she's an adult. bad things happen. she isn't about to let circumstances ruin her life, or dictate to her who she is. instead, she's going to accept and deal with them, giving them to God. not to preach, because frankly, preaching via the internet really isn't my thing, but seriously give you're problems to God, take joy in this freedom, and rest. this is, in fact, being responsible. this is what she said. and i concur. yeah, bad things happen, and obviously, being human, we're sometimes going to fall down and even wallow a little. maybe a lot, depending on what's happened to us. but i think it's important to have perspective, and realize that we're only burdening others by needlessly despairing, and we're stunting our own growth as individuals. i don't know about you, but i want to take responsibility for myself.... otherwise, ten, twenty years down the road, i'll have made little progress in this business we call growing up.